
Archive for April, 2009
Being a mom is the most rewarding experience, that said, life sure does change once you gain that title. I am soon to be 27 years old, have a wonderful husband, two amazing little boys, yet I feel so alone in my journey called life. My husband and I moved from upstate NY to Northern NJ just over a year ago and I am still struggling to feel settled. I have moved in the past, twice after marriage and children, but this is the first time in my life where finding “friends” has been so difficult. I have family which is a strong force in my life, but I long for a few close people that can relate to me and I to them, who share more in common with me then a last name or a childhood. Maybe this is my fault? I spend my time as a stay at home mom, I would not change that, but I have to find something that will allow me the opportunity to meet people.
I am in general, an outgoing confident person but when I step out my door here I feel this immense sense of intimidation. I can’t figure it out? I am proud of who I am. I am happy with the choices I have made in my life yet I feel like I am not good enough. I struggle with motherhood, marriage, my sense of self. I know I am not the only woman who deals with these same ideas. The difference between me and them, at this point, I have limited confidants to talk to about these issues. Life as a wife and mom is glorious yet I have to find a balance, something that lets me have time and fun as me.
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